Hi Liberty,
Thank you so much for informing me about your memoir.
All is not lost, at least with your memoir. You can safely publish your journal and life story, as a collection of four books each with about 220 pages approximately on Amazon or Draft2Digital.
Upload your work to Amazon KDP or Draft2Digital, design a cover on Canva and publish the books yourself. It maybe a good suggestion to get a young person or someone well versed with the web to do the publishing and designing for you.
Perhaps, it may get the attention of a book publisher or a film producer later, who knows. Meanwhile, you can earn a little spare change from your literary work, with a few or even large sales of your books.
Wishing you well, Liberty.
Regards
Warren